Pray for them

I'm scared
I'm scared if the history comes back
Comes to take a revenge and be monopolized
Comes to dominate and causing a war
Comes to realize the ungrateful people

"Melayu mudah lupa"
Yup, we forgot we're easily to forgot something
Maybe the incident make us open our eyes and thought

Cooperation and strength
That what we need now

Keep praying Malaysian
Hopefully what we expect is not true
Pray for their safety
for the dearly MH370

Hui Jia De You Huo

Salam readers

I'm gonna sharing one of film that I love most during my teenager life. Finally I know the title of the drama after I've been search for 3 hours. I love the story, the background song, the artist even not too very handsome but surely I love all about the drama.

The title of the drama is Hui Jia De You Huo or The Temptations to Go Home

You see the story is quite interesting. it is about a woman who called as a wife being betrayed by her own bestfriend who seduced her husband. the more worse is her husband like her bestfriend too and they planning try to kill the woman. by killing her, then both of them can be lived together happily forever.

The beginning of the story really really succeed makes me so emotional. I'm getting upset how they lie to the woman hiding their scandal life. the woman so innocent and this makes her husband and her bestfriend take advantage on her.

The woman finally realized about their secret affair but still not doing anything. she believe her husband and her bestfriend not stabbing her. even she saw in her own eyes about their happy life together but still optimism. she crying alone, trying to be strong, be devoted wife to her husband and even she still be nice to her bestfriend.

I still remember when she saw her husband and her bestfriend in love happily, she just hide and run. her leg being burned by the hot charcoal during her escaping just after she saw the scene of love of betrayer husband and her bestfriend. because of that she had miscarriage.

The husband can't wait for any longer to live with his mistress and finally he try to kill his wife by trying to drown her. He thought his wife is death. Yupp, she died but it was the innocent woman. she rebirth. she take for a revenge.

The revenge makes her strong. she changed her name, cut her hair, be smart and succeed woman, she learn how to be the gorgeous woman. she changed everything. from the innocent and dutiful housewife to determined modern and successful woman.



"How would I live my life, if I were to start again a different identity?"



Finally, on night party, she appear with sparkling dress and she saw her ex husband with her betrayer bestfriend shocked look at her but she pretended not see them. How's I like this scene because I can see her husband stunned looks his wife who innocent before become such as glamorous woman. but the woman pretend that she does not know them. really really makes me feel this is the time for you to make them have a deep regret.

She succeeded makes their household crushed. she seduced her ex husband and just used him. it same how her bestfriend do to her before. they deserved for that.

Finally, she know what her doing was wrong because the forgiveness is more better than continuous revenge. she stopped and lived happily with the one who she loved. she had another man. the more good man.

Overall the story makes me feel, as a wife we need to defend our rights. be attractive. be glamorous. and make the husband realize that he will feel sorry for what he had done. that's why we need to have career in life. I believe on that.

By then, I leave you with the background song.

Going somewhere at nowhere

You see, I'm bad in saying goodbye. it is not my major. I don't know what I suppose to do. should I cry? laugh or just make the pokerfaced without feel anything?

Saying goodbye seems the hardest moment to face..

Sometimes it could be better if others not know the time to leave. the time where I need to leave everybody and walk away into my own journey. journey full of independence and it was scary.

This makes me so terrible.

I don't want to leave

I don't want to say goodbye

I hate farewell

I wish I can bring them along

I wish I can tell them to follow my journey

I wish we can run together

Can I just go off?

Leave my two lil evils,

Leave my family,

Leave my precious time with them

the time crawl so fast. he envy me

Oh dear, I feel my tiny heart turn to horrible feeling

miserable, mournful, bleak

Dear Allah,

I'm sorry for all things that I've done

This could be a way to wash my sins

and to make me strong, right?

Would you to protect them when I'm gone? please

Keep them in safe and happy

I'm sorry 

I'm really sorry

forgive me please ya Rabb..

forgive me..

Tidak suka

Perasaan itu..
Perasaan yang sangat menyakitkan
merisaukan
menakutkan

Aku tidak suka perasaan itu
Tidak suka

Tidak ku suka rasa itu
Rasa TIDAK SEDAP HATI
Rasa yang muncul di jam-jam malam membuta
perkara yang terlintas cuma satu

Keluarga..
Semoga mereka baik sahaja.
Aku mengharap.
sangat.

Dear flower

I think I fall in a deep hole right now

I slipped and there's no rope to pull me up

Dear flower,

please save me

I think I fall too much

I'm going fall to the hole of love 

save me please before I get hurt

The meaning of Vivianne Zala

Salam readers

Today I'll talk about the meaning of my blog's name. My entry today is actually the idea I took from one blogger. she called this as her challenges to write her entry. and now I take it as my challenges too, the meaning of Vivianne Zala

My blog, Vivianne Zala is derived from my own name, Vivian. yup, that is my name. I know it's weird since I'm a muslim and my name seems I'm not but He has put my name that way in Luf Mahfuz. He is the one who give the idea to my parents and give the name to me and I'll use it until the end of my day.

Zala is not my sir name but actually it was name of cartoon. ever seen Gundam Seed Mobile Destiny? I love the cartoon so much as I can stand in hungry just to watch the cartoon because my mom does not like we eat in front of tv but I don't mind as long as I'm not miss even one minute of the cartoon's story.

Zala is the name of Athrun Zala. I fall in love with his character. he is soooo handsome man. seriously. I like his calm personality and he is benevolent individual. his mobile suits are Aegis and Justice Gundam. even in the middle of battle, he can be so charming and romantic. they way he hugs his beloved one, Stella Allster, that is the way I love him. unfortunately, his beloved died because she is from enemy side. later, Athrun with Cagalli Yula Atha. how i wish my name be there for him, Vivianne. (I'm in a deep dream)

Stella Allster.
She is sweet and gentle girl

Cagalli Yula Atha.
Strong willed and determined girl

Kiss me too. :)

At first I create this blog at the end of 2009, I guess. I make it as my diary. but I have deleted all the post I make before. even the small thing I posted in on my blog. how childish I am on that time. huhu.

Later on, I only put the important things on my blog. my journey with my friends. what we have done, what we have go through and I did entry for my beloved one too. it was for a long time ago because our relationship are stop in the middle of the road. I left.

I start using English in my blog since my English lecture want we have blog as an assignment. this is my assignment blog. later on, I make it as my second blog. actually, I intended to delete my blog and use the assignment blog as my main medium to spread my adventures, unfortunately, my heart still in this chronicle blog.

In Vivianne Zala, mostly the pictures I took from Devianart. I just love the way they took their pictures and it inspired me a lot. there are some pictures really makes me feel so calm. that's why all pictures I just take from there.

I love taking picture too. here are some pictures taken and edit by me.

Took when I'm packing my stuff before I'm back to Sabah

Picture during Hari Raya Aidiladha. I'm alone that day and I just sleep and eat on my pretty bed

And now, my blog is about dream. A story of a small and thin girl with underweight BMI named Vivianne Zala. her feeling, her dream, her life story, she throw all in this blog. I have tumblr too. you may read about me in here. my facebook? I'm the one who likely to having friends in fantasy world where we can share the dream without chatting or talking about each other.

Once again, thanks because you've spend your time to read my entry for today. good night people. have a pleasure dream

10.31 pm

Dear day,

I thought you will be hard today fortunately not

I'm very grateful to Him

with His permission I met a lot of friendly people

they are so sweet

Hope my journey in the next day will be the best ever that I have

The Fox Rain

I still don’t understand love
So I can’t get any closer
But why does my foolish heart keep pounding?
I’m haunted by you again and again
I just can’t get away

This hopeless love
Hurts my heart so much
Going from day to night
You’re all I think about
Being so pitiful and silly

What should I do?
The heart follows love
What am I going to do?

This hopeless love
Hurts my heart so much
Going from day to night
You’re all I think about
Being so pitiful and silly

What should I do?

The day when my pain fades away
Will that day ever come?
Being so pitiful and silly

What can I do after all?

The moonlight is so beautiful
I just can’t get away
Let me lie down by your side for a moment
A moment, just a moment

Fox Rain by Lee Sun Hee

I heard this song from korean drama, My Girlfriend is Gumiho. I fallen flat in love with the movie and this song too. really portray what my heart wishing to said to..

the dust day

 

It's a very beautiful dreaming morning today. Although I'm alone in my tiny room but it just last for few hours, I feel the loner. but I'm glad that I walked on the wet morning grass this morning to the exam venue.

and here I'm glad to say i'm finished my part 5 degree in UiTM Shah Alam. i never thought i can go this further as my mind said stay as a degree student is the most tiring and hard day. sooner, i'm having my practical in Kota Kinabalu. hopefully, my experience there is more valuable. 

My Monday

What are beautiful day today. I woke up earlier than before, freshen myself up and then open my windows and looks how the bright the sunshine are. I feel like I live in a small tranquil room. How peaceful my mind lives alone. Yesterday was my cloudy day as my roommates left me but today I can prove the feeling is only for temporary. It seems I’m easily to become placid indeed.

And now I’m sitting on my green bed, listening to Kim Soo Hyun’s song Dreaming with a cup of coffee next to me and write an entry in my pretty blog. Hopes today will be the greatest ever day that I have.

At this moment, how I wish as soon as I wake up, I open my windows and see a thousand of daisies in front of me. My dress keep freely flying as the breezy air come and I can smell the air was filled with the smell of flowers. I could see the figure coming towards me. How I wish it can be true someday.

Back to the reality, I’ve my last paper exam soon. lets pray for the colorful result.