Dear flower

I think I fall in a deep hole right now

I slipped and there's no rope to pull me up

Dear flower,

please save me

I think I fall too much

I'm going fall to the hole of love 

save me please before I get hurt

The meaning of Vivianne Zala

Salam readers

Today I'll talk about the meaning of my blog's name. My entry today is actually the idea I took from one blogger. she called this as her challenges to write her entry. and now I take it as my challenges too, the meaning of Vivianne Zala

My blog, Vivianne Zala is derived from my own name, Vivian. yup, that is my name. I know it's weird since I'm a muslim and my name seems I'm not but He has put my name that way in Luf Mahfuz. He is the one who give the idea to my parents and give the name to me and I'll use it until the end of my day.

Zala is not my sir name but actually it was name of cartoon. ever seen Gundam Seed Mobile Destiny? I love the cartoon so much as I can stand in hungry just to watch the cartoon because my mom does not like we eat in front of tv but I don't mind as long as I'm not miss even one minute of the cartoon's story.

Zala is the name of Athrun Zala. I fall in love with his character. he is soooo handsome man. seriously. I like his calm personality and he is benevolent individual. his mobile suits are Aegis and Justice Gundam. even in the middle of battle, he can be so charming and romantic. they way he hugs his beloved one, Stella Allster, that is the way I love him. unfortunately, his beloved died because she is from enemy side. later, Athrun with Cagalli Yula Atha. how i wish my name be there for him, Vivianne. (I'm in a deep dream)

Stella Allster.
She is sweet and gentle girl

Cagalli Yula Atha.
Strong willed and determined girl

Kiss me too. :)

At first I create this blog at the end of 2009, I guess. I make it as my diary. but I have deleted all the post I make before. even the small thing I posted in on my blog. how childish I am on that time. huhu.

Later on, I only put the important things on my blog. my journey with my friends. what we have done, what we have go through and I did entry for my beloved one too. it was for a long time ago because our relationship are stop in the middle of the road. I left.

I start using English in my blog since my English lecture want we have blog as an assignment. this is my assignment blog. later on, I make it as my second blog. actually, I intended to delete my blog and use the assignment blog as my main medium to spread my adventures, unfortunately, my heart still in this chronicle blog.

In Vivianne Zala, mostly the pictures I took from Devianart. I just love the way they took their pictures and it inspired me a lot. there are some pictures really makes me feel so calm. that's why all pictures I just take from there.

I love taking picture too. here are some pictures taken and edit by me.

Took when I'm packing my stuff before I'm back to Sabah

Picture during Hari Raya Aidiladha. I'm alone that day and I just sleep and eat on my pretty bed

And now, my blog is about dream. A story of a small and thin girl with underweight BMI named Vivianne Zala. her feeling, her dream, her life story, she throw all in this blog. I have tumblr too. you may read about me in here. my facebook? I'm the one who likely to having friends in fantasy world where we can share the dream without chatting or talking about each other.

Once again, thanks because you've spend your time to read my entry for today. good night people. have a pleasure dream

10.31 pm

Dear day,

I thought you will be hard today fortunately not

I'm very grateful to Him

with His permission I met a lot of friendly people

they are so sweet

Hope my journey in the next day will be the best ever that I have

The Fox Rain

I still don’t understand love
So I can’t get any closer
But why does my foolish heart keep pounding?
I’m haunted by you again and again
I just can’t get away

This hopeless love
Hurts my heart so much
Going from day to night
You’re all I think about
Being so pitiful and silly

What should I do?
The heart follows love
What am I going to do?

This hopeless love
Hurts my heart so much
Going from day to night
You’re all I think about
Being so pitiful and silly

What should I do?

The day when my pain fades away
Will that day ever come?
Being so pitiful and silly

What can I do after all?

The moonlight is so beautiful
I just can’t get away
Let me lie down by your side for a moment
A moment, just a moment

Fox Rain by Lee Sun Hee

I heard this song from korean drama, My Girlfriend is Gumiho. I fallen flat in love with the movie and this song too. really portray what my heart wishing to said to..

the dust day

 

It's a very beautiful dreaming morning today. Although I'm alone in my tiny room but it just last for few hours, I feel the loner. but I'm glad that I walked on the wet morning grass this morning to the exam venue.

and here I'm glad to say i'm finished my part 5 degree in UiTM Shah Alam. i never thought i can go this further as my mind said stay as a degree student is the most tiring and hard day. sooner, i'm having my practical in Kota Kinabalu. hopefully, my experience there is more valuable. 

My Monday

What are beautiful day today. I woke up earlier than before, freshen myself up and then open my windows and looks how the bright the sunshine are. I feel like I live in a small tranquil room. How peaceful my mind lives alone. Yesterday was my cloudy day as my roommates left me but today I can prove the feeling is only for temporary. It seems I’m easily to become placid indeed.

And now I’m sitting on my green bed, listening to Kim Soo Hyun’s song Dreaming with a cup of coffee next to me and write an entry in my pretty blog. Hopes today will be the greatest ever day that I have.

At this moment, how I wish as soon as I wake up, I open my windows and see a thousand of daisies in front of me. My dress keep freely flying as the breezy air come and I can smell the air was filled with the smell of flowers. I could see the figure coming towards me. How I wish it can be true someday.

Back to the reality, I’ve my last paper exam soon. lets pray for the colorful result.

The moment of goodbye

i hate my self when i can't just let someone left me behind. i know everybody doesn't like the saying goodbye and me either. but it is different. although i just spend a few time with her or him, but when i know there will meet the end of story, i feel sorrow. i'm begin to be a miserable girl.

i think i have to prepare myself. i've to remind that every each Hello, there will be a moment of goodbye. hope it can bear it in my mind.

I saw the love

Sometimes I wish I can turn back the time. turn in the moment when i do not know what the love means. the time as my feeling still waiting for the real prince and holds my hands and kiss it. the prince who fly over from the other world and just see me through the windows just like a stalker. how i wish Peter Pan would be my prince on that time.

and now, yup i'm still waiting but i'm waiting for someone who is deserve. who is could bring me in journey to become the "halal" and guide me towards the jannah. who i can fully depend to, smile, laughing, sharing, and holding hands with the "inai" on the hands. 

i believe the story love Allah makes for me is the romantic story. He wants me to meet the wrong person before i can live with the right person. and now, what i have to do is be a well behaved girl,take care of my tiny heart and create a good relationship with Him. surely He will see me :)

My new blog face

Salam readers..

Its been a long time i'm not decorate my blog. i think its been since i'm stayed in Peninsular. I just make it as simple as i can with the white color as a background but i try to make it colorful by putting some of pictures instead.

My blog on 2011. that is on April. see that date.

full of color and it seems fully chaos.

with a pictures took by my friend, Tika and the entry, fuhhh, the touching one.

and yet the entry is still exist..

Still in the same year but made in different month.

surely i'm active to make my blog pretty but that is for a long time ago

the time when i'm pretty childish and have a lot of free time to spend to make this blog pretty as well.

and now as what you can see its only white

white. white and white

i just want to create harmonious feeling with some vintage imaginary.. 

hopes you like it

together we across my dream 

see my adventure

in the voyage of the life journey

in this blog

In Vivianne Zala's blog..

One less lonely girl

Source : Devianart

By : L I T T L E P H O T O

How the pictures inspired me to do something

I love music very much. i guess it become a part of my life

it can change my mood, seriously

from gloom to bloom

from dreary to glee

oh dear, 

i fall in love today

i listen to my love song and suddenly..

the unexpected calling turn me into pink reddish face girl

his name appeared on my screen phone and I froze to death

oh my, hope the old feeling not to appear now

my heart in the progress to become pure

but its gonna be one less lonely girl :)

Dear 2014

My days seems so new to me

I learn to play with my own stuff and just think the world only live for me

the animal that I can't touch have change me into cat lover

 and my exam still not finish yet and I need to read a lot

but I likely to choose to read  my old diary life rather than the books of future

at the end here I am staring at the window and wishing Happy New Year to everybody

2013
The year that full of stories
full of memories
and full of the best lessons

I ended up my year with a simple smile
with the happiness in my tidy heart
and a little "superman" in my soul

This year had change me a lot
turn me into a sensitive woman
hot-tempered
impatient
a little harsh 
and I've a got a good immune from the "love illness"

I tried my best to be the best to show that I can live in the strange and this alien place. to be the "alien" person in here is not an easy thought but I cross it as the time goes by. the time swift so fast and I'm seems not have opportunity to grab the memories. I spend my life with hanging out with my pals but I forget the dreamy place that I want to go. 

the time is keep walking and I'm stop in the middle of the road waiting for someone to grab me and take me into their journey. why I need to wait? why? I suppose to ask this question a long time ago. 2014, hope the year become the year as I could walk to find them. even though it full of sacrifice but I know Allah always be there for me. as long as I not forget about Him, surely He puts me on His way. save me my Rabbi.

Hope the the year 2014 is full of happiness stories. full of good memories. and as a year where I can be the girl who cam save the world. and save myself too. by then, Happy New Year everybody :)