Death, is horrible truth

Salam readers

The time shows 2.35 a.m and here I'm writing entry in my blog. Today, I start my day with a little happiness but soon in the evening I found something that makes me put the smile on my face. I'm bored because my friend always said that live in the hostel is like we are living in a cave. No happiness. No freedom. No calmness. For me, actually it was come from our life. our perceptions. if you're able to find your own ways to happy, to calm, to have freedom, even you're in cave or cabin or anything a close place, you actually can find all those things. I know live in hostel is same we live in a jail but actually this place makes me feel there is a way for me to happy but I have to find it out in this bored place. I know there is a way.

That was another story. Other story, just now, my roommate was tell our a story about his uncle. His uncle was died because of AIDS. I was like can feel what she feels right now. My aunt was died almost 3 weeks ago and yet I still feel that she was in the house scolding my little brother, laughing and have story telling with my mom, sitting at the balcony and hanging clothes. Actually she also one of my motivator to study not in Sabah. she wants me to study out from Sabah and follow her daughter in Peninsular. I never thought the last kiss at the forehead was the last kiss given by her before my journey to Shah Alam. Life is unexpected things right?

All living things will die. sooner or later all of us will die. I'm afraid to die. you? there are so many things that I've still not done yet. not only to myself but to my family, friends, and to Him, to Allah. I don't know what I want to serve to Allah when I die. I'm full of sins. my journey to meet Him are still too far. . Everytime my friends talk about death, it makes me feel and ask to myself, are you ready to die? do you?

Death is horrible truth and life is beautiful lie.

Miss Vespa

See those pictures? I'm gonna have it one someday. InsyaAllah. I love the vintage style. Actually, this little Vespa I was found in my handphone. It was there for so many days or years but yesterday I was found that picture and knew that its name is Vespa. Oh my Rabbi, all stuff I love actually is just near on me. I'm just the one who doesn't realize about it. If I had one, what I'm gonna do?

1. Ride it around Kuala Lumpur

2. Will be my wedding picture (blink-blink).

3. I'm gonna bring it and ride around the most beautiful and calm place in Malaysia, Cameron Highlands and hear this song again and again and again :)

I love this song. I'm always in 'jatuh cinta' everytime I'm listen to it.

by then, have a nice day people.

Encik Whitney

I'm a little bit tired just now but I want to put an entry today special for my beloved one Mr Whitney. He is the thing that I can life without. every seconds, hours and everyday he is always beside me and helps me. The one who ever make me laugh, I tell him my secret, be my reminder when I forgot something, be my alarm when I got a little bit hard to wake up in the morning and ever see me cry. He is the only one see all that I've done and I love him.

Who is he?

Taraaaa. He is actually my handphone. He will be fly back to Sabah because my mom will bring him back to Philippines. I feel so sad. It was my present given from my dad and now my mom wants to bring him back together with her. I don't know why I feel so upset maybe because we have so many stories and memories. Actually, there was a message that I'm not delete until now. From the first time we were chat until today, I  just keep our conversation chat. It is a memory. I love to read it again and again and again. Oh my, this handphone keeps my memories and the worse thing is I can't delete all that messages. 

Dear mom, please take care of him and if you read something inside him, please don't delete it. All that things  are your daughter's happiness. By then, hope my mom may travel safely. aminnn. 

Okey then, good night people. remember always appreciate what you have right now. it might leave you someday because everything story will have an ending. good night and salam.

Escape Day

I got menstrual pain period just now and here I'm escape my class today, lying on my bed and write entry in my cute blog. This pain make me sick. I wonder if the pain of born baby would be like this. As usual, my pain 2 in 1, menstrual pain and gastric. Here I put some edited picture by me and was captured by me also. huhu.  By then, happy Wednesday. I'm going to sleep now :)

I know I can fix it

I'm just feeling so lost in this few days. I lost my inspiration and I think there is something that I forgot to do. Something very important. I don't know what happen to me just now seems everything going wrong. seems so nothing. I tried to get my soul back but I couldn't find it. 

Today, while my friends are sleep, I find my way to fix all that feeling and guess what Allah gives me rain. Oh my seriously, all the problems just swift away like the raindrop fall into the earth. I'm sitting at the balcony and let the rain wet my head. I don't care about others. I know people are staring for what I'm doing today but I don't mind as long as I feel happy.

The clock crawl so fast today. 

Time heals everything and I can heal myself. The mistakes before makes me strong. Thanks for that mistakes.

Little Girl

My dreamy world is all came from my dreamy life. I love to find inspiration photos that will make my dream come to life. Like this huge tree in the middle of the grass field and those lovely pictures which I grabbed from some of others blog and also from Devianart

Back to my story; I just love to have my own life. When I was a little girl, I just love to spend my time locked in my bedroom and 'play' with my imaginative friend. Listening to music and act like a princess. I just love to be alone. It does't mean that I've no friends but perhaps I've so many things to do when I'm alone. The calmness is exist there. 

But then since we're in a high technology world now, my dreams can be shared with you guys in this blog.. I want others feel what I want to be. feel that life is too short to be unhappy person. I don't know why I'm always says that life is too short. maybe because there are some life out there doesn't appreciate them self.  I've faced many problems during my lifetime. and it keeps me strong. I can't die. There is still so many dreams I still not achieve. Go umrah with my family, travel around the Europe country, meet my lucky husband. hehe. 

Life is something unexpected right? 

I tell you one secret about this girl. People said this girl a little bit weird. She loves chocolate but doesn't eat that chocolate, she loves mathematics but uneasy to remember others' phone numbers, she likes to be like a childish but she is an older sister. why? let me tell you, she loves chocolate because she found that chocolate is cute but to eat that it might be a little hard for her because it make her dizzy. She likes mathematics but uneasy to remembers others' phone numbers because she have been hurt before. Memorize the only beloved number phone, then when clashed, the number still exist in mind and everytime dial others number that number is just come out. and again it makes the little girl's heart been hurt. Thats why from that day she'll never memorize others phone number. Yet she can memorize others number if the number is not saved in the contact phone. and lastly she is an older sister but act like a childish. She has two little sister and she always play with them. maybe that became one of the reason why she become childish but there is another reason. Actually, she wants to avoid from any awkward situation. Being so serious make this life we just live with one color. Sometimes we need someone weird.

After all, that little girl characters are actually come from a real life...

By then, I'll post another post about introducing them later... Salam Jumaat and Happy Reading!

Bersediakah hati?

Hati ini telah kembali pulih

Parut yang dulu kini beransur baik

dan dia mulai berbunga-bunga

Oh Hati,

Bersediakah kamu?

Bersediakah kamu untuk jatuh hati semula?

rasa takut itu ada tapi entah kenapa hati ini makin ada taman

Ada sesuatu yang membahagiakan hati

Sesuatu yang Allah bagi dan hati nampaknya semakin suka

Oh Hati,

Bersediakah kamu?

Bersediakah kamu untuk merasa rindu itu?

rasa rindu yang mampu buat kamu tak tentu arah

rasa rindu yang buat kau hari-hari jatuh cinta

Oh Hati,

Cukup sediakah kamu menerima semua ini?

Jagalah hatimu Hati.

Jagalah..

Ya Allah,

Sesungguhnya hati ini tidak mahu dilukai lagi

Jauhkanlah ia dari perasaan yang suka berperasaan

Jauhkanlah ia dari perasaan yang mudah jatuh hati

Kerna hati ini kena hati-hati memilih agar parut yang ada tidak ditoreh

Ya Allah,

Kenapa hati rasa semua ini?

Kenapa dalam hati ada taman?

Pasti ada sesuatu yang hati tak tahu

Sesungguhnya aturanMu cukup indah

Kau tahu hati lemah dan Kau hantar sesorang untuk 'kunci' hati

Terima kasih Allah

Ya Allah,

Hati mohon,

Jagalah hati ini

Jagalah ya Allah.

Apakah dia merasa seperti mana Hati rasa?

malu ;)

Life is full of colors

Salam readers

It was a long time I'm not write anything in my blog and now I'm coming back. :)
Aku tengah bercuti sekarang. I just back from Melaka yesterday and that was a great journey. Sebelum nie aku pergi Genting Highland with my friends and guess what the game make me cry. Oh no. Ia sangat-sangat memalukan. cry in front of children? malunya saya. sob sob sob..

But who cares?It is experience. actually aku naik Pirate Ship and Roller Coaster bha tue. dha taw hati tue kecik then kenapa maw naik semua benda tue? stupid me. huhu.

Seperti biasa kita akan naik cable nie dulu. pining lalat wehhh. huhu

My friends. Ambil berkat dulu sebelum main. huhu.

First game ini juga yang di cari. memnag jantung si Vian hilanglah.
Oh ya, mata tue jangan tengok yang lain plak k. nak edit tapi tak tahu nak hilangkan  gambar seksian tue. huhu.

Nampak belakang tue? tue la space Impact. gambar nie di ambil selepas naik tue benda alah.
jangan risau aku just dduk di bawah tengok dorang main.
kalau aku join sekali, ndak bergerak kali aku. uuuhh semangat. huhu.

Jambatan gantung pun ada.

Inilah kawan sia yang suka bergambar. padahal aku pun sama. :P

Akilah..

Yusaleha

Nie sepa ar? huhu

Ini game aku paling suka. Tue pun aku pening juga. huhu.

Dan ini game bikin aku gila. walawehhh.
rasa nak lempar barang jak time naik nie. semangat aku tinggal belakang.

Nampak tue pirate ship?
Kalau dia berputar 360 darjah, aku ndak taw apa akan jadi.

Sebelum pulang :)

Haaa. tue baru Genting Highland. The next day we went to Melaka. time tue aku sakit k. demi Melaka aku sanggup tahan naik bas 2 jam dari Shah Alam. Alhamdulillah, Allah suru aku tidur dalam bas then ndakla mabuk gila sangat. tapi gambar tak banyak la sebab Nikon Pink ku habis cas. I'll put more picture after I take them from my friends. so here are the some of them :)

The first place we go are the Heritage House.

sanding sendiri. huhu

Nie kawan dari Melaka. dia yang bawa kami terokai Negeri Bersejarah
Thanks Nabila :)

Artis jooo. huhu

Malacca at the night. full of colors and I love it.

Kemana kaki ini?
kaki ini sedang menaiki Bangunan Taming Sari. naik tingakt paling atas then dia pusing-pusing
mabuk sikit jak. (padahal). huhu

A famosa.
Mata macam tue sebab silau. Patut pakai topi bha nie. huhu

bommmmm..

Bergambar bersama monumen. memang bersejarahla. anda patut datang sini.
Buat promosi  la plak. huhu

Nampak belakang tue? tue la Bangunan Taming Sari

Francis Light.
ermm, pelik semacam orang di belakang ku nie. huhu

Banyak souvenier..

Kawan jadi model. huhu

Sampai gereja pun di bawa bergambar.
sebelum nie aku pergi Masjid Selat Melaka tapi aku ndak tangkap gambar sebab tak sempat
Selepas solat dha gelap suasana kat luar. laut pun dha tak nampak.
tapi tak pe la Masjid juga dalam hati :)

So, these are some of them. nanti upload lagi di lain hari. InsyaAllah. Now, I'm become the independent person. aku nak ucap terima kasih dengan beberapa orang. macam nak buat appreciation la plak. huhu. Actually, yup I want to make appreciation for those who leaving me behind. someone have ever told me, the best revenge is be happy. and now, I'm happy for sure than before. Ini semua hadiah selepas aku ditinggalkan. adededeh. huhu.

Dear Allah,

Thanks a lot. I never thought the decision that I'm afraid to take finally make me the happiest person. Now, I'm surrounded by loving person and make me feel I can't wait to fall in love again but this time with the right person until Jannah. Help me ya Allah. Help me to through all of this life. My life full of colors and I love it. Thanks Allah. Syukran Yazillan. :)